You need your space, but what does that entail?

Will we continue to go back and fourth? Will we be together? Will we not be?

Will you choose her? Talk to her?

It's hard not to think back to the beginning,
Everything was perfect.

The look in your eyes before you kissed me,
The feeling of your hands against me,
The smile I saw every day.

Slowly those things have faded, but because of pain within you?
Or because of me?

All I want is you, to be happy with you.
If that doesn't happen, I get that.

I would not blame you.

I want to get out, be done with the bullshit.

Most of all, I want you there.
In whatever form it is, I want you there.
Whether we are together, or just friends.

Because at the end of the day,
You were there for me when nobody else was.

I want to be there for you through the same.

I know everything is built up, I can tell.

I want to be a call away even if we havent spoken in months,
years,
decades.

You call me, I will be there.
Regardless.

Because I know, if I called you.
If I needed you.
Even if we havent spoken in months,
years,
decades,
you would be there.

No matter the situation, you would be.

I see it all.
Most of all I see you.
I see everything we have been through,
and I do not want to stop now.

I just want you to be happy,
Even if that throws away my happiness.
Even if that breaks my heart.

Your happiness is what matters most.
You being okay is what matters most.

I will always be here.
I promised then and I promise now.

for eternity.