I spent most my life living with misery we had a deep chemistry with a little mystery everything was kept so real the sadness I never thought I'd feel. Love watched me grow and I loved it. I knew that my happiness would be something to benefit, but my state of being wouldn't allow me to have none of it. Seeing other people happy was reminding me that this feeling would never arrive for me. I finally had to  get that sword & shield and lay it down. Deep wounds cut like a knife the battle is finally over God protected my life. Mistakes were made, love was slain, my dues were paid, and here I remain. I want to...