I spent most my life living with misery we had a deep chemistry with a little mystery everything was kept so real the sadness I never thought I'd feel. Love watched me grow and I loved it. I knew that my happiness would be something to benefit, but my state of being wouldn't allow me to have none of it. Seeing other people happy was reminding me that this feeling would never arrive for me. I finally had to  get that sword & shield and lay it down. Deep wounds cut like a knife the battle is finally over God protected my life. Mistakes were made, love was slain, my dues were paid, and here I remain. I want to see how real love shines, how every bit of heaven's light radiates from your eyes. How our hearts remain in constant conversation. How when you smile this world has one less war. How the care you have I've only seen before. I had to suffer through my trials & tribulations to understand that there is a male creation that matches my soul. I didn't know what God had in store for me a man I never thought existed before showing me. I always thought my prayers were ignored but they were just delayed, my heart was on life support but with you it has been saved. Love is eternal I'm no longer afraid of the grave. I've been with you so many miles traveled no more distance and I'm still amazed, for you I still crave, I still say sometimes he can't be real is he really mine or am I'm afraid to feel? But God told me you are here to heal, and this love is enternally blessed.
So I promise to give you my best until my last breath.