i sat on the edge
on my hospital bed
thinking what did i do wrong
and what can i do for
the trust of every loved ones
that i killed once.

looking at the nurse
and the hands of her
so old like a rotten tomato
i wish i was that old.

i realised i did nothing wrong
but the people who didn't listened to me when i said no
i see them every day from sounds and smells
and reality is becoming my hell.