You were the one I chose
Although you decided to leave
heartbroken and overwhelmed
the alcohol was my only need
always approached me with no judgement
the pen and the paper were my partners
I wrote long paragraphs one night
explaining how I was hurt
read again and again and then I ripped the paper apart
Although years have passed
I still see you in the corner in the dark
mind games and hallucinations
I had it all
still I survived ,why did I?
I admit I am a coward
I am scared to allow myself
fall in love once again
even though it's the best feeling
I can't seem to compromise
oh how it hurts
haven't been said I love you in a long time
and I miss every bit and every line
jealous of people loving each other
wondering...