I'm dealing with something ;

Something that fears me ,
Which also tears me .

This headache is freaking shit ,
"I" is the one I hit.

Why am I scattered ?
Did I even matterd ?

I'm done ,
with every single one .

Trust me , I hate myself ,
You must be , loving yourself....right ?

I'm fed-up ,
But still smile , with wassup ..

I want to change my extroverted nature ,
Will you then call me mature ??

I hate the way I'm friendly ,
But I hate myself more , sadly .

I want to seal my heart ,
And then , dear heart , please don't start .

Something that nils me ,
but also kills me .

I'm just waiting for my end .
The end . Final end .

Thankyou 999

© _moonlight