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Death Roll
Why do other people get to live
life while I'm stuck in my room,
on a loop, up all night, watching
them live n' laugh in perfect loops?
I watch a young dad and
his little six year old daughter,
both sharing musings about their
viewers while casting lines in a pool.
How does it make sense for me
to be stuck here all night, a slave
to my thumb that won't let me
sleep despite my eyes' pleas—
please, stop this madness.
I don't want to live a life of useless.
God gave me a beating mind and heart
so why am I living a life of heedless?
Ya Allah, I beg Your pardon,
I really need You to excuse me.
In the last third of the night You
called out and asked, "Who's asking?"
I turned in bed and ignored You
but please, I'm here now, I'm asking
Ya rabbi 'afwan, ya rabbi 'azman,
ya rabbi nasran, ya rabbi zidni.
Overlook my audacities and save me,
don't enslave me to my mind and ego,
I beg of You, don't refuse me.
I'm here now, I'm asking,
deliver, don't refuse me.
© Walyullah
life while I'm stuck in my room,
on a loop, up all night, watching
them live n' laugh in perfect loops?
I watch a young dad and
his little six year old daughter,
both sharing musings about their
viewers while casting lines in a pool.
How does it make sense for me
to be stuck here all night, a slave
to my thumb that won't let me
sleep despite my eyes' pleas—
please, stop this madness.
I don't want to live a life of useless.
God gave me a beating mind and heart
so why am I living a life of heedless?
Ya Allah, I beg Your pardon,
I really need You to excuse me.
In the last third of the night You
called out and asked, "Who's asking?"
I turned in bed and ignored You
but please, I'm here now, I'm asking
Ya rabbi 'afwan, ya rabbi 'azman,
ya rabbi nasran, ya rabbi zidni.
Overlook my audacities and save me,
don't enslave me to my mind and ego,
I beg of You, don't refuse me.
I'm here now, I'm asking,
deliver, don't refuse me.
© Walyullah
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