I can't say I ever really enjoyed regular life reality. if I remember correctly it did not fill my life with any meaning whatsoever. and if I've learned anything it's that your life or in my opinion my life means nothing unless it has sufficient meaning. you can find meaning in many things especially what's already been presented to be of meaning. but what about the extraordinary meaning what about the flexibility of life what about the possibilities are endless what about conquering issues together going through the storm how beautiful that would be but I can't bear so much bland order structure division manipulation. I'm tired of paying to survive and never ever ending up with anything that's my own ever and that is how things should be once you pay up you get to choose what you do with it that's true but that'll never be a fact of our lifetime. so we're renting our lives just to be dictated and I know they try to teach that authority is not a bad thing but it certainly isn't benefiting me it's restricting access to many many horizons many many meaningful experiences. it distracts your mind and you lose touch with time life should not be a stress life should be beautiful life should be happy on its own you shouldn't have to do all these coping techniques I mean sure life isn't going to be roses every day but what is going on here and why why is everyone just so zoned into it I have no choice but to zone into it or continue suffering wishing for a true free will. not to mention survival within a city can be quite demeaning but I would have never expected that people around would judge . first off they know how hard it is next off that's all that was available to me if it was and at one point in time it wasn't but the fact that they bullied just made life so much more meaningless it took everything that I gathered and held on to that got me through each day devalued it and it turned it into a sob story and a need for change which is a...