Morning birds singing. car engines beginning. The start of a new day. I grimise in a way. another day of feeling in between. not actually being seen. numb being normal. quiet and peaceful. iv healed enough I'm no longer hurting. but now my soul is burning. I spend most days dreaming, to avoid the scheming. I'm a vessel of love and he's the serpent. swallowing my energy whole. I wondered what he stole. I was mistaken and thought it was my heart. ten years later and all I can do is cater. keep you happy for the boys. make sure you can get all the new toys. smile and nod while you break me in two. you'll see in a few. being numb has allowed me to heal, and that was what broke our deal. I see where your toxic and bad for me. I'll get my footing and you'll see what I'm ment to be. the reason you chose me in the start. will be what pulls this apart. you are not what I thought you could be, and that's on me. how you treated me though, that's all you. it won't matter what you do. karma has a way with getting to you. and im positive that will come true. so I sit and take my time. and watch as it starts to climb. I won't be here for the fall if I can help it. hope he brought his catchers mit.
Soon he will see how healed I am, and why I just sit.
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