Maybe I don't deserve to be happy.
Maybe I should have known that all along
Because every time I start to think I do,
The universe proves me wrong.

I'm losing everything that keeps me going
So what am I supposed to do?
Everything that makes me smile,
Myself, my sanity, and you.

It's all going to disappear
And all I can do is sit and watch
As seconds tick by and time runs out,
I'll sit here staring at a clock

When was the last time I could breath?
Why can't I remember?
Why do I feel like I'm suffocating,
And I will I feel this way forever?

When my peace becomes the weapon aimed at me during my war,
And the sun begins to set faster than it ever did before
When the hole in my chest grows bigger and bigger
I'm left thinking with myself,
God, just pull the trigger.

Rip it all away.
I don't want it anymore.
I don't want to be happy
I don't to hurt anymore
I don't want to breathe
I don't want to exist
I...