Everyday, I leave my living hell only to be returning;
every night, I feel empty and cry for the leave of my feeling that I'm burning.

Some days are okay and without feeling hollow;
but now, more often than not, I feel there's nothing left to follow.

I don't know why I always feel this way;
could it be the side effects of my uncureable disease or maybe I'm just my own valet to my inner gray.

I wish that it would go away, leave me alone, and leave my thoughts;
but they always return without fail, continuing to come much like my required painful insulin shots.

I feel myself falling slowly deeper, should I just give in and get my visit from the reaper?

I don't know who can save me, but there is one who gives me reason to fight;
he's my lover and he's my protective dark knight.

For I will stay loyally by his side;
for I believe we've been allied.

He's the only one that I truly trust;
so I need to protect him, even if I need to sacrifice myself... I will, and I must!

I almost always feel empty and hollow;
like my inner self is in eternal suffering and never ending sorrow.

I can be strong through this never ending eternal pain, as long as I continue to be feign.

I can be strong with my dark knight for me to assist and give him all my heart and mana;
even if that means that he wakes and I don't awaken some manaña.

He wants to help me; but he won't let me return the favor. So I won't let him help me by withdrawing of telling him of the negative things that I internally foresee.

So I shall continue to suffer within myself,
I don't care if that means I am left again to crawl;
if I will have to bring my load to haul,
or if I am brought to crying wrawl,
or even if I will have to go against any and all protocol.
I will suffer and slowly die if that means being able to help my fallen angel and forestall.

I will again wear my fake smile around him, say "I'm fine."; I will refuse to accept his help unless he accepts mine.

I will make myself promise to go back to my hiding, I know now that I must hide all my negative emotions, even if I am actually dieing inside;

I will make sure that if he does stumble down the negative road of consument,
that I will be loyally at his side and forever coincide.