I hate the way I sometimes get out of my mind.
I wonder why I'm I zoning out like
Someone else is out there who can live my life
Better than my Self?
Why can't this coming into consciousness
Once done can't stay always?

I hate the way I idealise someone as the perfect human.
I wonder why, I always end up being the one
Who is begging for someone else's reliability?
I wish my mind always rely on me
The second I find out someone isn't good for me,
Without being a narcissist.

I hate the way I run out of concentration sometimes
Even though I do monologues most of the times.
And I think it's time now...