I’ve found that self forgiveness isn’t easy
Cause self forgiveness doesn’t come with an apology
But teetering on the edge of hating myself and loving myself is a unique fine line
It kinda makes it seem like self love is an anomaly

Ever been through so much that you're scared to start living again?
Mainly cause of how long you’ve been just surviving and scraping by
But just like the problems you were thrown in to, you didn’t have an option to take that first breath again
Alongside the people that were “there” just supply another “L bozo”
When the support you asked for when needed was openly rejected and declined by a good form of “Love and support :)”
“Just let it slide…it’ll be fine”
“I bet they’re busy”
Over
And
Over
And
Over
And
Over.
And you sit there and laugh as you watch them just not care
Knowing. There’s not a thing you could ever do
Knowing. You can’t just walk away
Knowing. The feeling of being constantly trapped feels like it’s never ending
So. Are you okay?
Or are you just so used to the confinement?
But they didn’t wanna hurt you, that’s not what they “meant”
As you feel the “best” people for you, haven’t left, quiet. Yet.

So as you try to...