Trust issues a 100
He said I’ll learn the hard way
Giving every all of my privileges to someone else
The way they have fun
The way they flirt with each other

Every day and night
Endless calls and texting
I am confused
He said they are just friends
But he knew she is into him
She grabbing every opportunity and making the most of it

He lets her
He gets carried away and moved with almost everything they do
It was becoming frustrating and I had nothing to do
Talked with him about everything
But what happened? It feels like an empty hole
He was dead carried away already!

Of cause he never stopped telling her about me; That he loves me really!
She knows everything about me! He would explain to her somehow, even a misunderstanding between us.
He sells out all about me to her
A manipulator he is;
The audacity
The disrespect!

I think he is fond of her
He speaks his wild thoughts with her
I know what she wants at the end
She is playing too nice too
So she can get him fall in love
Read their every disgusting messages, It sent fire down my soul.

Is he immature or something
Being mad because I’m mad at him for hurting me and giving me trust issues!
He does this every now and then
And whenever I found out, he would rush to make it feel better!
Am I lost or something? What is happening?

Feels like I’m losing myself
Am I not thinking right?
What’s the matter?
What must I do?
It’s funny how being angry with him makes him angry too, when he is the cause of it!
Yes he loves me more than anyone else!
Except himself!
He does selfish things for himself alone and leaving me in the blank as if I’m unaware and blind to this much hurting.



© Dellanie Buck