When I was younger I wanted to be older 
But now that I'm older I want to be nothing 
I mean, I used to want to be young
I thought it was fun 
I thought it was carefree 
But I wasn't happy then and I'm nowhere near estatic now 
"Living is hard," I had explained to you with a frown 
There are so many things to do 
A never ending checklist that keeps getting longer 
And then I feel myself getting weak 
It's been a week since I've...