in all the turmoil and chaos
in the calamity of my own visions
your face swarms past me
retreating like a fleeing army
you couldn't love that long to witness my youth
you disappeared when I needed you the most
you withered away before I could mouth your name
you sneaked away without directing me to the way
Your hugs didnt 3mbrace me at the moment of triumph
you weren't there to wipe away my tears at the time of your demise
you couldn't afford to give me your shoulder to lean on
I couldn't call you dad when I grew up
Your laughs didnt rattle in my ears
Your talks couldn't rip up my fears
Your lullabys didnt sweep me into a slumber
Your calls didn't cause me to rush down the stairs
You weren't there to greet me when I came home
I searched and wept
but couldn't find you
I got lost in my own world
Caged in my own dreams
I searched the perimeters of this world
I ran across the suburbs to retrieve you
Plunged down the depths of the sea
But you weren't there
weren't there to snuggle me in your arms
or song me songs in the moonlight
Weren't there to whisper "my little princess"
Or wish me on my birthdays
never here
Except for some shard of memories
Some moments enough to carry on our legacy