in all the turmoil and chaos
in the calamity of my own visions
your face swarms past me
retreating like a fleeing army
you couldn't love that long to witness my youth
you disappeared when I needed you the most
you withered away before I could mouth your name
you sneaked away without directing me to the way
Your hugs didnt 3mbrace me at the moment of triumph
you weren't there to wipe away my tears at the time of your demise
you couldn't afford to give me your shoulder to lean on...