Dear God
It's Transformation Sunday, I'm turning into my replies.
You got so quiet for me, You ever looked in the mirror and hate what you see or just to say so and make you relive it and be like "time been linkin' like centuries, turned you into my enemy" speaking to the layers of the reflections.
I'm guessin' that's just the kid in me pointin' all of my scars like, "look what you did to me, see, I'm a different person now but I put you in the same box. I'm so afraid to lose you 'cause I'm finding myself in you, still every day that I choose you, I'm choosing myself"
Everybody get a shot and when they take their shots, it's like they aim to kill but I'm a different caliber, painted a perfect picture, then the paint stop. I don't wanna say I had a shot, that I just couldn't adjust. I'm just tryin' to cope with the impossibilities, I wish were possibilities.
I know you say your plans are not to harm but to prosper me, I wanna believe you, but you're not helping, wish your plans were see-through, 'cause right now, I feel you hurting me throughout this process
I was independent at fourteen, I was nine when I made the decision, that's when I learned the same ones who loves you will try use you. Ma heart's been gone since then, can't wear it on my sleeve, this thing a tank top.
I'm a vault, I keep it closed, so nobody knows, the pain I've been dealing with built a wall on me, it's like they always searching for my insecurities, they be pushing all of the buttons I know they hate being pressed.
I wanna drop the ball, but I know that I gotta pick it up, get ugly for it, get beautiful, but it's lookin' rough. Gotta step with urgency when you the one that foot bills.
No court cases, but I'm done been through some trials, I been through the lost and found and I hope you found me better. I'm just prayin' that You hear me 'cause, I put in a lot of time and effort actin' so elementary, that's been drainin' all of my energy.
You got so quiet for me, You ever looked in the mirror and hate what you see or just to say so and make you relive it and be like "time been linkin' like centuries, turned you into my enemy" speaking to the layers of the reflections.
I'm guessin' that's just the kid in me pointin' all of my scars like, "look what you did to me, see, I'm a different person now but I put you in the same box. I'm so afraid to lose you 'cause I'm finding myself in you, still every day that I choose you, I'm choosing myself"
Everybody get a shot and when they take their shots, it's like they aim to kill but I'm a different caliber, painted a perfect picture, then the paint stop. I don't wanna say I had a shot, that I just couldn't adjust. I'm just tryin' to cope with the impossibilities, I wish were possibilities.
I know you say your plans are not to harm but to prosper me, I wanna believe you, but you're not helping, wish your plans were see-through, 'cause right now, I feel you hurting me throughout this process
I was independent at fourteen, I was nine when I made the decision, that's when I learned the same ones who loves you will try use you. Ma heart's been gone since then, can't wear it on my sleeve, this thing a tank top.
I'm a vault, I keep it closed, so nobody knows, the pain I've been dealing with built a wall on me, it's like they always searching for my insecurities, they be pushing all of the buttons I know they hate being pressed.
I wanna drop the ball, but I know that I gotta pick it up, get ugly for it, get beautiful, but it's lookin' rough. Gotta step with urgency when you the one that foot bills.
No court cases, but I'm done been through some trials, I been through the lost and found and I hope you found me better. I'm just prayin' that You hear me 'cause, I put in a lot of time and effort actin' so elementary, that's been drainin' all of my energy.