I'm sitting in my room, with my 9mm, she's lying by myside, knowing that ima meet her, and when I see her, I'll let everything flow out my chest, what you think that not trying that I'm lying, I'm trying my best to stay alive, but these bad memories keep coming back every time, why can't they just leave me alone, cuz they starting a war with myself and it never ends, I'm at the end of the thread and cant escape these memories that are taking over my brain, this feeling it's hard to explain, I'm done feeling like this feelings taking over, I just wanna make it end.