not schizo, need no meds said so , synthetic techno - lepethy ,my brain waves decode binary through platforms by techs to fuck with me .' , call it what you want ,I call it psychotronics freyed my mind , just let me be. won't never happen , what's hapnin. capn so die please die or set me free, let me fly still I think inside my mind , why do I think , why do I cry ? Some days I wake and wonder why.. other ones I wish other fuckers would just die. I alone stare this evil spoon in front of my eyes. there is no spoon, just a big sea of deceit and lies, throughout the years I watched my friends die one at a time, an error likely fatal to define all the rest of my days. major stress, too much depressed my worth feels less , life tackles the fate, slowly more and more I turn becoming all the things that I hate, the cost of my survival surely means to me you must be the prey. to ruin you is me here for you now, I am the leech you portray. actions flipped around the way they see me,then love turns into hate. lost alot and taken more, I'm now thinkin maybe you shouldn't stay, try and fight the fight that I can't win I hate existing this way. have to have it,when I want it, need it man I don't wanna stay, without God can't ask the will I don't have so can make a good change. I go solo I'm the lone man I am every member "my gang". dissolved memories fade back, the times of mine I felt was in place. what's the use, a life inside my mind, the end we all go away. bout to lose control and when I do I think you all better pray! pray it's quick or that I miss, but I won't, like your blood I will spray, there you have it off my chest, harmless little words I say, hoping they were heard, and it's all the time I think the fuck have I been cursed? I try it never works. a better outlook while on earth, cause the hypocrites say the day I die that Im sure to burn. the same evil minds manipulate eternal pain deserved , blows my mind they act all high and mighty, when they're lower than dirt, twist and mixed with lies, decieve,recieve the access wallet/purse. fucking mother fuckers out there really are a piece of work, always got a story, of a situation never heard, so fuck it all in every way I seen evil mislead it's church! You know your acts of pedo rapists, thus it's nothing that your worth! O'why O' god ones I describe, fall through the cracks after their death will one day turn
. fading ,wading to our necks in bullshit how we reap the sow, panicked and confused, you stand my shoes then point the way to go, could try, you'll never find a resting bottom to this rabbit hole,...