God I fucking hate myself
I really truly do
how naive could I be?
believing that he truly wanted me
three months in he called me, drunk
and proclaimed that
he was going to marry me

he didn’t even know me

all he knew was part of me
the controlled, protected me
he didn’t know the me
who cries and screams
and curses and hurts
the me that’s so fucking shattered
I cut anyone
who tries to put me back together

if it weren’t for me
we might last
but he fell in loved with only a part of me
not all of me


© AllisonKC07