I took a break these past two weeks
Time for my self
A chance to get in touch with the woman in me and say farewell to the little girl
expecting a break through;a moment of clarity
I ventured in to my very core with nothing but the company
of my note pad a
nd my lucky pen.

I ran into memories there
things I was shocked to find
still pulsing in a little corner
things I deemed inconsequential
moments that I had left behind to rot in the gutter

yes, I took a trip down memory lane
knocked on every door in the whole damn block
said hello to my mistakes and surprisingly, little victories that got confused and too scared to come out that they kept themselves under key and lock

I bumped into a girl that looked at me with eyes that look like mine ,only younger
"Hello,little me"
She smiled at me with a smile I used to have, but no longer

She sits and studies my frownlined face with such curiosity
I give her my best smile knowing soon enough she'll stare at the same face in the mirror
and it will have nothing but acrimony to throw at her

Before I flip a page and move on to the next street in my timeline
I tell her to make better choices so hers don't align with mine.
See I thought it was a gift when life provided all of her best so long ago
Too naive to realize it was a barter i took it all
I didn't know
Not until her men came to...