You took me for granted
Because I was always there for you
You was staring at her
but damn I was looking at you
Looking at you
Like you put the damn stars at the sky
Like the super hero
Who scares my nightmares away
Like my savior
Even if i was the one who's bleeding
I don't deserve you right?
I'm not that pretty to get stared at
Not pretty enough to get compliment
To make you look at me back
You were looking at her
"Damn she's so pretty" you whisper
And I felt my heart bleed
When my ego shattered around
"Damn she's so hot" you repeate
And then she looked around
Flipping her hair with the damn confidence i lacked
How many times?
Do I have to get to hear that?
To be a second choice
Always a backup
Not a princess, just a mistress
No hard feeling right?
No good morning text's
Just "are you alive?" One's
Good night texts before the midnights
Just checking on me once in the week days
Or asking favors when you need date ideas
And I smile looking at my phone
Planning the date thinking it was mine
"Damn he finally noticed me" cheering in my room
'Till you told me it's just for other girl
Again and again
You make me a clown
In my own damn role
You are looking at her
"Damn she's so pretty " you whisper
Then you look back at me
shifting your eye gaze from her
"What do you think friend?" You asked
And I noticed the sparks from your eyes slowly die
Like a damn child whose mother is taken away
It hurts being friend zoned
by the one person you almost loved
But it hurts more to look the sparks in your eyes die
" Damn he's so handsome" I whisper
And you stare at me like I'm insane
"Yeah, she's so pretty" I grinned
Faking smiles to make sure the lies are well covered
And I witnessed when your eyes come alive
By mentioning merely her name
I closed my eyes praying the tears not to fall
Because I know the eyes they never lie
Shakespeare said it to his beloved Chico
And I had doubted his words but surely not this one
Because I've seen the look in your eye
The way you came alive
The way you stared at her
like she put the damn stars at the sky
Not pretty enough to get stared at right?
Lacks some angelic features to get morning call
Good morning texts from some random guy
Damn, I craved that, the thing most girls get bored with
To be called pretty and to get stared at streets
I missed the cuddling but never got past a sholder pat
Even waited till midnights to get touched by the rain
Because as I said not pretty enough
Right?
"Damn he's so handsome" I cursed under my breathe
Remembering the days we laughed till we cried
Remembering the hugs you gave for me
when I was the only one you had
When you was the only one I almost loved
"These eyes Chico they never lie"
That's what Shakespeare said
And i never trusted his words
The way he romanticized life
Like How dump is Romeo to get killed for juliet?
But i never doubted him when he said
That eyes chico, they never lie
Or when he said
"Doubt tho the stars are fire
Doubt that the sun doth move
Doubt the truth to be a liar
But never doubt that I love"
And you laughed till you are in tears
When i told I belive in this
That's when I died a little inside
when you accidentally said:
"Actually never mind, I would die for her too"
I filled my heart with hope balloons
And i felt when it explodes and the damn tear fall
And you whispered
"Damn, you are so pretty when you cry "
And that's when i realized Romeo was damn right
Or I got the feeling why troy started the war
Or why napoleon killed for Josephine
Because as Shakespeare said never doubt that I love
Damn, I would die for you
To be called pretty one more time
By your mouth, with that lazious haze
Please darling, one last time
Before I die
Then I woke up with a sunshine smile
Waiting to be called pretty one more time
Waiting your "good morning, darling" text
But that's when i realize i needed to cry
To be called pretty one more time
"Damn, she's so pretty when she smile"
You said till you are ear to ear
They asked how many scars i can justify
Just because I liked the person who held the knife
And i said: "just enough to be called pretty again"
"Damn he's so pretty when he smile "
Damn you look like my dream guy
And i saw when you doubt my Sanity
In those beautiful brown eyes
"Are u okay, duh?" You asked
And i felt it again being friend zoned
By the only person I almost fell with
Because the love I wanted for us?
It would make Shakespeare blush.
Would make the stars align
Even if we have the same sun sign
"Damn she's so hot" you repeate
"Yeah, she's so pretty" I murmured
Faking smiles to make sure the lies are well covered
That's when I knew my love, that we are doomed
Even if I started a war like troy did for Helen
Even if I tried to heal you like rapunzel did for Eugene
Even if I die for you that won't be damn enough
Because I'm not that pretty right?
Lacks some angelic features to get a morning call
Lack something essential to be the love of your life

#broken #heart break #Istillloveyou
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