it's something to think about now yet if you were only close to your death bed you would then see how it could truely feel . closed up from once again a broken heart . loss of affection and not really knowing or being showed unconditional love. always been lost from every true feeling I wished I could of grew up and understood but as the days went by I finally realized it was always just gonna be me . and hope one day yall or he would see that I tried and cried because no matter how hard I tried feeling nothing but misery to lift everything that broke me I'm so week every day I feel the pain . of this tradgety yet but it really didn't seem different to me cause of what I'm used to having . .. nobody. myself abused and mistreated left for dead and to rot in the hell that I was saddly not even barely welcomed in. judge me just do it . at least I know where my heart is even if it was for another human being of what I even know how .to show that how I would've believed it should've been for me. knowing that nothing will ever change and the world keeps spinning and I'm still tearing down what's left of the tent I'm about to have to sleep in. but I grow to know.its better to not let nobody know what I have to deal with .. I guess it seems that I'm to...