If I could tell you how much I miss you.

How I spend my days haunted by flashbacks. Haunted by remorse. Knowing ill never kiss you again, knowing I will never feel the warmth of your hugs. I live purposeless with nothing but beautiful memories tainted by the blood of my mistakes. First 3 seconds are pure joy, then a pain of deep sadness and loneliness takes over my body. Like chilling cold waves of the ocean hitting your skin. Life with a mouth full of regrets, a head full of burdens.

I miss you.

I love you.

My heart aches for you.

For I chose self-love over you. My wounds still pound fresh with pain, synchronized rhythm of my beating heart.

I still lay on the very same spot,

my blood still runs down my arms like endless river flowing shades of red. Awaiting for you ,sweetheart. With open arms and open wrists. Joyless future I endure.

Why must I thrive in your jungles and still feel stranded?
Motherless karma. How much shall I endure the angry wrath of your storm?

How long shall my seas be tormented with your thunder?  

Sweet poison, when will you work through my blood? When will I be immune? 


© Arthur Normal