There are times where I want to have friends and in that eagerness I make a lot of friends
but in one instance I saw I am not satisfied because they start gossiping and create groups within.
They have many secrets that they feel annoyed to share with me.
seeing them getting annoyed I feel wrong and move away from them
They use me when they need some help.
when I learn that I need help from them they even help me but something said in my heart dare you talk to her anymore you will be in danger.
I closed my eyes and believed myself and let go off her hand.
at first I cried for leaving her but then I admitted that my heart was not wrong. It was right.
may be through fights and through certain circumstances I no longer have any contact with her.
But I was able to focus on myself and focus on the work I need to do.
later on I give myself self dignity and respect that shows me road to a high open lane where I find lot of opportunities and new people and I can see the view across the bridge.
If I trust myself and lean on my shoulder all alone I am sure I will reach the other end of the bridge.
after reaching the other side my friends wave to me and say "do you remember us, it's our effort that you reached this far now it's time that you lend your hand so that we can reach and be part of your success. "
my heart sank and it cut deep, I was able to see it sinking but no one was there to heal my wound, they stood still so that I can help them.
the first thing I remember was the lines my mother taught me lend a hand to a help in need. That made me worried.
this time I looked up and saw his grace and said "God you brought me this far my heart does not feel like helping them but for your sake I am doing it ".and I took a step backward to help them.
all of a sudden a voice from back called saying if you go out you are just asking for trouble. but then I decided I was once like this and because of those helping hands I reached this far.
i didn't look back I went forward and stepped , suddenly the bridge started to shatter. I took my complete strength to go forward and help them.
but the bridge started to fall apart.
the friend screamed and said come fast we are here to save you don't stay there alone or else no one will help. I looked forward and kept one hand forward and was determined to die when a person from back pulled me and said "look after your own life God knows who you are, he doesn't want you to be with them so go, I will take care of them. "
I looked above and said "I trust you and I believe you".
I walked away with guilt but then I said to myself God knows what happened and let off go my thoughts and walked forward......