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The biggest lie that I have ever told
and continue to tell each day,
have to be "I'm okay"
Most days I am broken, a mess, depressed
or somewhere in-between,
Most nights I am sobbing on my bedroom floor, but nobody knows this,
as my tears are never seen

They will ask me how I am doing,
And I know they are just being polite,
And I will automatically respond that
I am okay,
Because that is what they want to hear right?
I watch them as they move along
with their day,
In my head I am screaming
I am a liar!! I am not okay!!

If they pass me later in the day,
I see them whisper and frown,
I pull my shoulders back and fix my metaphorical crown,
Faking a smile as I nod my head,
When all I want to do is scream instead,
I am my own worst enemy,
in every possible way,
Instead of telling them the truth,
I keep saying "I'm okay "

I am sleep-deprived and losing weight,
I haven't washed my hair
for two days straight,
The bags under my eyes are almost worthy
of a designer label too,
Again they ask me, "How are you?"
"I'm okay" I quickly respond and
hurry on my way,
Just to get home and be everything but okay.
© Lolla Smith