I wake up in the dead of night
Lungs gasping for breath
Heart pumping like a maniac

Bed drenched in sweat
Still drying from the tears
Desperately searching for the pillow
I slept cuddled in...clinging to it as it’s my lifeline
That’s how much I feel lonely
That’s how much I am afraid to be left alone
I used to sob under my sheets
Hoping they would silence the screams
It is strange when I tell anyone this
But now the sheets seem sinister somehow
I feel like I might suffocate
And die as I cry under the covers
Sink in the silk linens soundlessly
As they build my tomb above me
That’s how much I dread my death
Still it doesn’t stop me from wishing I already was

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