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why do I miss you
why do I miss you?

why do I want your hugs back?
why do I want to hear your voice again?
why do I want to see you smile?
why do I want to look back at your face?
why do I want to text you all night?
why do I still stay awake at night for you?
why do I still see you in every sunset?
why do Iwant to text you when it’s getting bad again?
why do I want to add your insta again?

why do I miss you so much
when all you did was leaving me in pain?
why?
I don’t want to miss you anymore.
I don’t want to see you when I close my eyes.
I don’t want to regret the loss of contact anymore.
I just want to forget everything that you did to me.

why do I miss you so much?
because of you I can’t be alone with boys I like
and I am scared of meeting new boys.
because of you I am afraid of love
and I push the people away that show me love.

I hate myself because of that.
I hate myself because I can’t show love.
I hate myself because I can’t go in dates.
I hate myself because all the things you did to me.
I hate myself because I get a panic attack when I think about meeting you again.
but I still want to meet you again.
it doesn’t make sense but I need it.