Knowledge of you stored in my head,
it makes it’s way deeper into my heart.

This is where you live.

You’re the existing logic that makes a placeholder out of me
and my heart.

As a memory.
A feeling.
A thought.
A beat.

I feel you in this heart of mine.
'Cause the words I say for you, are.

They're coming out of my head.
And the values ​​are transferred.

Makes my heart beat faster.
It's more complicated.
More difficult.

You give me a reason to believe.
'Cause if I can't believe in you and me, what's left?
I choose to believe.
Until the day I die.

Only your name
It spreads through me
And it makes me more alive.
More alive than ever before.

Old friend — you’ve sacrificed too much for my ignorant pride
loving me.

I recognize you you.
Your presence, and what it meant.
To me.
To you.

I acknowledge your kindness in your honesty,
which is the purity of your heart.

You were patient when I couldn't understand how you needed to be loved.

You let me be myself.

Loved me anyways.

Even if being myself was not enough.
Not enough to give you fulfillment in happiness.

You lost sight of the dark shadow for me.

On my darkest days
You showed me the light.

When I was sane
You showed me what to do.

When I was out of my mind
You brought me back together again.

You reminded me of who I was
when I lost meaning.

You used what I taught you to teach me what I learned — from my own life,
so long ago.

It didn't matter where I was.
It didn’t matter what was happening around me.

When it came to you, the chaos stopped.
When it came to you, evil fell silent.
When it came to you, your love was stronger than war.

I must have done something right to deserve you.
I still don't know what it is.

But I do know — the words I love you,
They don’t quite seem enough.

Expressing what I feel is an eternal truth.

It is an insult to speak words
that do not have the true value
of the speaker.
An impossible truth
and a frustrating fact
that I cannot explain.
Literally.

I try to find a way every day.
But every day my love for you grows.
Changes the value.

And again, I'm looking for more explanation.

I will spend the rest of my days
trying to uncover the truths that exist
in this love we have shared.

That's how I know our love will continue. Even when we don't.

When you can't remember the specifics of us anymore, it’s ok.
The universe will be there for you.

When you can learn to actually forget me for days on end, I understand.
But the universe will remember.

And one day a reminder will come,
and we won't have any answers.

But I certainly hope I’m there,
to see what’s been destroying our souls,
and taking us on this journey.

If heaven existed, this would be mine.

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(I translated my original peice written in Russian into English. My Russian version is also available).

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