Somewhere feeling lost
All day long in my bed
From dusk till dawn
Day by day
Went like minutes ago
No energy in my lifeless body
Suicidal thoughts in the
Alleys of dark mind
Hoped there would be
Rays of light in some corner
Found none
Lifeless body still living
What a nightmare
came true
River of tears flowing from my eyes
Deadly and scary thoughts
Were a routine
Body losing it's soul
Minute by minute
The shivering hands
That sudden ache in the chest
Earlier anxiety was just a word for me
Until I felt it
Lost interest in it's own life
Endless sadness never left
Darkness became a friend
Bed became all time place
Minute by minute day by day
Months passed
Still waiting for some light
At the end
Got tired with all
Tried to get up from the bed
Did things which I wanted
Lost again and again
Wasn't easy
Felt like a rough path of stones
With invisible shadows
Throwing the stones at me
Deep down in me were
Hailstorms with strong gust of winds
Tried to survive
Surviving was the only thing left
But never gave up
In the end
I survived
Saw some light peeking
Through the clouds
Knew I reached home.

© Laiba Mazhar