A monster , A slayer and an Apprentice of the devil himself
One that victimizes his preys in his presence leaving them in a barren state of mind
Deep down you can feel the dread, the emptiness, the sorrow and yet to say I am numb inside
I can't take this no more I see myself dieing yet I am living
The therapies, the consultation, the visits,the utterance and yet I feel nothing
it's like being hit by a train run over by a truck and crushed by a steam roller but I am still breathing
life take a toll on me and I feel like killing myself
overdosing on over the counter drugs
self harming myself to numb the pains that I already feel
starving myself on the brink of exertion but not letting anyone know that I am aching
I sit and write down mysteries of my life from birth to where I am now
sometimes I wish I wasn't born
I blame myself for the sickness that I have
sometimes drinking helps then the same drinking would send me to the hospital
passed out and in shock I tend to think that I am a waste of space and I need to end it right here and now
depressed,anger and drained I tend to say the world would be a better place without me in it, who I am kidding in a state of rage i would say I am not broken but yet I need fixing and if the world can't see it then something is wrong with the world itself. Depression is a state of mind that leaves you thinking and questioning yourself about who you are and what the world itself see that is wrong with you
judged by the anonymosity of the world it tends to lead you down the wrong path of self destruction
meditate, elevate, uplift,motivate and praying to the most high can lift you up in best way to show the best version of yourself.
© trixie21