You can't even respond to this
Something's amiss
I remember the days you didn't exist
I'm weird as fuck bitch
I care about my children
Not whether or not you lose real men
I never cried about a short pencil
That's reserved for them
Get past this system
Don't work with it
Without considerable allegations from illiterate bitches like you
Thank you
Copy an paste
your regard
I go hard
She's coparenting with a retard
They're one in the same
I'm just me
An you treat me like I'm lame
That's a damn shame
Been weird
I genuinely took interest in your career
An I'm obsessed?
You read my mind?
You capable of return those sentiments in kind?
I hurt all the damn time
You just wanna waste mine
See me vilified
Cause you think I gotta compete with people that never tried
Nothing bout it justified
I hit harder than any bitch that couldn't be tried
At some point we all gonna die
That's life
An it exist whether you're wrong or right
What was I getting at?
Why I get ignored when I'm not even fucking mad?
Why could someone like me be constantly sad?
I love being a Dad
I hate having to lie about the extent of consideration that is there
Cause all you wanna be is unaware
Remember it don't pay to fucking care!
You can have your hell
I'll die with my nightmare
Cause in those bleak moments where
Insanity overruled reality
Where I can Imagine an cherish my role gladly
Without the fetters
You can wonder why my poems look like love letters
Cause I'll hurt forever
An you won't know any better
I wouldn't have abandoned her
I can't uphold anyone unwilling to work towards their future
I suffer from wounds they can't suture
Unseen
Unsaid
Why I get treated as the mattress placed between the bed an the wall
You determine what they saw
You don't care about my children at all
An I never asked you to
I grew so much looking after you two
I have a lot of purpose
Not a lame fucking rap name
We definitely don't think the same
I can work on me
You'll delegate blame
I'm a narcissist
Cause you won't change
Their prowess literally depends upon fucking the women anyone else can
Mediocre head
A dead end
How would you fare?
When your fragile ego tears
When your pride leaves them traumatized beyond repair
I do feel dead inside
I was trying while she was lying
Ever experience your characteristics beginning to die?
Hell bent on everything you'd supply
Watching your children cry
Cause you asked her to try
Dealing with anger, over the guilt she couldn't ignore
Not once mentioning how much you did
Hoping you feel like shit
Only chance you get to talk to your children
I'm upset cause I gossip with every person I can
Unless your kissing my ass
I'm making a strategy plan
Imma cheat again an again
I won't mention how you found out about the first guy
I won't mention following you to work everyday
I won't mention entertaining every thing said on a trolley by another man
How big sis taught me how to be a woman
If you wanna come to my place you can
Whatever you can't do, a guy with a pocket knife can
Home early
I was just complaining to another man
I won't mention you doing what you can
I won't mention the good times
I won't ever attempt to fix whatever I destroyed with my lies
My sister knows guys
I won't try!
You're making me angry
That's why
I don't care when our children cry
If you loved me you'd believe me everytime
I don't have time to waste on someone that won't serve me
imma post on facebook
Fuck trying to be the woman my children need
In too deep
Only sheltered by the lies I keep
In too deep
I can't have emotions
They're scared to bleed, an I'm weak?
You can fulfill a want, you won't touch a need
Using weak dick to break your bed
Cause you successfully made me out to be fucked in the head
Cause my truth meant less than what a post said
How's does one live afraid?
My sentiments with the attention paid
Proud of my children
They love me unconditionally
All I did was be there
When Reyah's holding me up, I got purpose and a reason to go on.
Not once was I happy to leave
Try being your children's peace
When they need to be mad at you
When you're reasonable enough to stop, knowing they genuinely hate you
Next time I'll stab you in the heart!
Die!
Kill yourself!
I apologized!
You just wanna argue!
I'll call the cops on you!
LEAST MY CHILDREN LOVE ME
Far away from you crying over the sacrifices made
I knew it wouldn't be easy
I just wanted to know you needed me
As your sister spoiled her bf with our children's money
I'm a bum!
Imagine being more stupid after someone says something
Why no one else can have nothing
You'll steal whatever gets a compliment including prescription glasses
Bags an whatever else you felt like takin
There's nothing gangster about you, you lie an they're stupid enough to believe it's true
I lost myself helping you
An yet you continue to do the same exact shit
An it's my fault because I tried to love past your front
I alone these thoughts haunt
Cause I feel empty
*past tense as in occurring at a legal time an parameters
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