I don't write these lines to spite you,
or because deep down I don't like you,
I write because my life's a mess and 'cause I thought you might do,
the same as me and fight through,
to achieve dreams we said we'd like to,
achieve together hand in hand 'cause after grey skies comes the bright blue..
Before you left you told me that you'd stick around and fight for love,
but the crunch came and you just left and I really didn't like the shove..
You used to light my life but now it's dark and gloomy sitting here,
I tried to kill myself because my demon's said that quitting's near,
and now I sit in fear, wishing dear that you were here and brighter days were gettin' near..
I still hold you dear my angel you changed my life but times were hard,
I was psychologically damaged at work and I spent those months tryin' to find the cards..
To lay on the table, and tell myself that I was able,
to get the help but with a mind disabled, it felt like I was dying, cables,
felt like they were choking my throat and I truly was just so unstable..
I couldn't cope and couldn't breathe,
until you said you were gonna leave,
and that was the kick I needed to flip my shit around 'cause before that I just couldn't see,
any good in me..

© Ashley (urb4npo3t) 2020