Topic: What people think about you versus what you and God know about yourself. Thoughts that aren't from God - the need to be admired and excessive worry about people's snap judgments or the desire to fake a lifestyle and personality instead of just changing for the better.

What if I could be just like
that girl who has it all
not because she never falls
but because she mounts the rodeo racehorse
yet again?

What if I could be just like
that girl with a waist length mane of glittering hair blowing in the wind?
What if I could win souls with a mini fight
just by throwing that look in my eyes at him?

What if I could be all right
by spending the night with someone
without letting Satan have won
by misleading me into giving my body
to a young man I think I know
and whom I am not married to ?

What if I could be seen for being all that
- here, there, flying through the air and everywhere I should be?
What if people turned their heads to follow me first with their eyes

second with their souls
and last with their bodies
when I walked into church
and champaigned down Main Street

Because I moved like a dancer
and spoke like an angel?
and captivated open air audiences with the mere sound of my voice when I sang and rode through the streets?

What if people thought I was the most beautiful
incredibly attractive, graceful and helpful
caring and hardworking soul
who was humbly unaware of her own feminine beauty and unmatched intelligence

written on her forehead
even if I wasn't?
What if I could do everything right
and never show an ounce of neediness
and have a captivating, unpredictable personality?

What if people admired me in every possible way
listening intently to every single word I say?
Just to learn something new, odd and interesting about me?

What if people were in awe
When I dropped my romantic guard to finally thaw
in the arms of a recently met stranger...