I want to say I'm alright
I want to see my old smile
I want to hear myself laugh
I want it back my whole life
But all I could barely say
I'm trying to feel okay today

Battling while losing my balance
Putting someone first before me
Hiding the truth with camouflage
Missing some place but won't step in
Did I just buried myself in different ways
Everytime I thought I handle it right

Best believe I'm still breathing
But only sighs are brewing
Desperately trying to find God
In every prayer, I used to underrate
Recalling every guilt in the past
Been living anywhere but here

"You'd ruin yourself like that"
Should've I known better than them
It's weakening instead of awakening
That's not the comfort I'm looking
In my head are just full of horns
What a great tragedy I'm in for

Bet the news are all over the place
From one people to all kinds of phrase
And I always been lying here
Last one or simply stranded
Either way it meant I don't matter
I wish I could just disappear

© damsel with thoughts