Mama, why do you ignore my feelings when I need you

Are you even sincere, when you say "I love you"

You kept hurting me, as a punishment

I didn't do anything wrong, I am just a kid, what did I do to deserve this judgement?

Mama, I am starting to fall under the water

The problems keep piling up and I wonder

When you are angry, you hurt me as much as the ground hit by the restless thunder

I am starting to ask myself, are you even my own mother?

This poem is not to hate you, it is for you acknowledge your own son has his problems

Just like you, who has suffered in the hands of your husband or my father

The pain I've been feeling, for 15 years of my life is the reason I wrote this letter

I wish I never existed in the first place

When I call God, I can't see His trace

How do I believe a being when I haven't seen Him in person face to face?

I am questioning my fate

Maybe I'll regret this for the rest of my life, I hope it is not too late

Mama, you are the only one who could open the gate

Help me open my eyes and let go of the past and hate


© Hazmatsuite