I can't function under stress,
so that's at a job, a restaurant, or anywhere wearing a dress.
It all started trying to get the license plate of the man who abducted me.
So what happens in this duress?
I'm floating out of my body...
I'm trying not to start sobbing, but eventually I do.
I'm cringing, paranoid, and my blood pressure is soaring...
Why was I able to function before...
The pill pushing doctors opened the door
because I was acting out, they called it a conduct disorder,. I was afraid to tell about everything that happened now they say I have a lot of things wrong besides the conduct disorder..starting on the day about the guy in the car
I was over medicated on lithium, Seroquel and trazadone and many more
Everyday I was on a cloud and I could not cry even if I tried...
i was institutionalized over 40 times..
it was like I was running around in circles trying to escape my mind
I was just acting out what he told me and not to tell...
uncountable traumatic incidents came because of what that man told me how to behave...
now after 28 years of smoking cocaine, I'm finally safe in my own bed, but my only teacher, my love, has gone to the grave..what do I do next, how am I supposed to keep growing without argument..the tears flowing,
the plants are growing and now no one can pretent about not knowing....
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