with the gun pointed to my head
looking straight into the barrel, and thinking that this moment
this moment could be my last
this could be my last breath, my last thoughts, my last everything
flashes of my past, playing in my mind as if it's on a screen
have I really lived my life
did I live it the right way, did I live it the best way
could I have done any better
these are thoughts that kept on nagging me, are these thoughts important
could they be any helpful at this moment
yes I have loved, but have I loved the right way
could I have loved any better
have I done right by myself as a human
have I done right by my soul, spirit and by God
the giver of life
have I accomplished my purpose
do I even know what that purpose really is
what's waiting for me on the other end
questions, without getting any answers
is it fear or confusion that's giving me such a time
why can't I just be at ease and accept my fate
for the first time in my life, I'm praying to God for a second chance
Lord I'm a sinner, I know this is a last minute thing
but I'm asking for forgiveness
for a second chance, to live my life the right way
to live by your will
© Brian Chasara