"I was born broken
and for years i spent
making broken into
my own beauty,
but now im shattered,
and i didn't know it unfortunately, scattered like ashes .
Watching myself turn into dust,
i didn't know anymore,
i couldn't fit in with the rest,
even at my best,
I couldn't pretend anymore,
i use to have purpose
And now im not sure!
I am stuck in this depth of hell,
burning on Earth for eternity.
I have seen it, trust me
running from the darkness
as i see my light dim,
not once or twice
and now im is surrounded by them, the demons i mean.
There is no way i can leave now,
im stuck. Stuck here ,
Zombified!
Horrified!.
Finally seeing
what I was meant to see,
i was backed into a corner
i felt it, i even said once
or twice they were coming for me.
i just wasn't meant to be.
I felt defeated
& i got tired of pleading
i knew i wasn't going to give up,
but who to say i wouldn't have gave in,
I mean I did try and try
especially when i thought
it was me against them.
i knew i wouldn't win
this time I did I knew,
i surrendered.
I was on knees
I begged them just take me
I begged them to do it,
I told them hurry please,
i knew they wouldn't of
As they usually would just laugh
and mock me.
Playing with me as if i was a doll
or toy for the hounds.
I wasn't going to fight them but i did stand my ground.
You would have been proud,
i did it quietly this time,
without making a sound
Shhhh! Hush.

© LileveLuna