feeling like the last 6yrs have happened over night since silkys soul was taken from us all, just like dominos everyone I care about starting going, Anna clendening said it well it's getting bad again,I'm on a downward spiral once again,thus be a little bit different as I am alone with my kids all 7 of them I can't live without them, being sole parent is hard as fuck some days i want to quit, but I can't show that weakness to the kids they continue to belive I'm some superhero I got this I will find a way to work everything out,because I will and I do I always have when it comes to them I'll be dead with all my family and friends a before anyone got a chance to get to my kids,homicide suicide I'll be taking a few detrimental rats with me, or they be left feeling the pain they inflicted on me, losing everyone at once, is a kick in the guts especially when the man u have waited approximately 2yrs 1 month 3 weeks 4 days stayed true,loyal,supportive,and devoted,only to have him turn his back on me as soon as he was let free of that bracelet, his world got bigger his options got wider, all of a sudden he had to be reminded,
to go home, to check his phone, to call in to check on us at home, he started staying out so much the lounge room we changed to a bedroom to suit our big family needs I changed back slowly, was nearly completed before he even noticed I was moving it, mind you he already brought a caravan for himself out the front, why should he care what's happening inside, what he wants and his plans are different he refused to admit it, crazy is what he said I seemed every time it...