I haven't seen you in a few days... Last time we spoke it sounded like you wanted to come over and chill. I don't know why its you of all people that's on my mind. I have been giving 95% of my attention to you, I'm not gonna lie. Im not sure why you are so important to me. You have done nothing for me to deserve my loyalty and you are anything but loyal to me. I'm just second best, maybe third. However I give you the most of what you're wanting but you leave me hurt. When you are here I just want to wrap my arms around you and tell you how I feel. Your company is intoxicating. You're like a drug, i cant get enough every day im waiting for a call from you. I whisper to you my pain and place my heart gently on the table for you to see. I feel exposed, you're like a butcher you slice it up. You don't seem to get it, or maybe you don't believe in love. You overlook everything I say. Nothing I do seems to prove to you I'm different but you keep coming back. I can only make the messages so clear. I hear my words being repeated and see the tears in the mirror. Please just understand my heart bleeds for you, act like you care. You're like a romantic rose covered in sharp thorns. I have your stem firmly in my grip. I squeeze tighter and watch my blood drip on the floor. Talk about "Bad Romance". I can't get you out of my head, I think about you when I awaken and when I'm trying to go to bed. From sunrise to sunset, I'm messed up about you. I thought I could finally have peace in the softness of sleep but even dreams of you dance in my head. Its almost haunting, you could even say nightmarish. I'm yearning for something that seems so close but its just out of reach. Desperately, I am oh so desperately clawing at my scalp, hoping to break my train of thought because you make me feel insane. I can't focus on anything. I couldn't get into my favorite movies or my favorite video games. It seems everywhere I look I see your name. Every path I try just leads back to you and I don't know what to do. I have been playing the song you showed me on repeat. I'm hoping to find a secret hidden message deep. Hoping its the way you feel about me. I don't know if you would put that much thought into it because you play stupid. That's why you're dangerous... I know I should let you go but I can't stop thinking about us. I imagine me being your girl... I imagine rubbing the pain out of your muscles that you complain about. I imagine cuddling and listening to music in the dark. I imagine putting my head on your chest and hearing your heart beat. I want nothing more than to take care of you but you pick and choose when to let me in. It hurts when I give you all of me but you're still hiding things behind your back, its bothering me. Let me take care of you and show you a love you have never felt before. Stop teasing me with affection and playing with my soul.