TELL MY SON,

I know this finds us too late,
We lost track of time,
Im buried in sorrow that I saw all this coming but hesitated to confront you,
I was afraid too of losing you,
I thought if I did, I would never hear you knock at my door each night from where only God knows just to say goodnight,
I remember how most times I would just assume your knock just to listen you say,
"Mum, I know you can hear me, goodnight".
Our connection was awesome that I thought giving you time would help you realize how much you meant to me and you came out clean,
How you would come sit next to me and let all your negative side known to me and I'll answer,
"Son, I knew all this, I've just been acting around to bring you closer enough and try figuring out everything together."

You remember that day I walked in your house and since then I never returned?
Yes, alot of what I saw proved to me something was a mess, I followed up your education and realized you barely attended classes,
Its been two years now of me trusting you with everything knowing very well I didn't recognize the young man anymore,
All I recognized then was you never stopped saying goodnight and showering me with love
You still recognized momma.

Here I am breaking down in tears, knowing that I would have saved you,
And standing next to you saying exact words you always said to me,
"Son, I know you can hear me, goodbye, you will forever miss you, your knocks
And I'm sorry, I failed you as a mom

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