you can say
please say what you want to say
and you can breathe
if you really still feel the need to
but I won't wait
I can't wait anymore for you to change
- to speak the truth
I don't know how to do anything
but I don't crave anymore
to see you extending your hand
I guess you couldn't
even if you wanted

I hope you know
that the air you breathe out
is the drug that keeps me stuck
yet you sit there and demand
that I bring myself out of this rut

you tell me that I'm crazy
use words, so demeaning
then you ask me if I hear myself
you shake me, push me or
better yet - ignore me
you are why I can't sleep at night
I can't let you win this fight
push
shove
hover
let go
just let me go

remember...