I lay wide awake all day reminiscing about my past. They are all things now that I wish I could always be a part of my life..
But I lay now, in silence just hoping to soon get out of this room I'm confined in.
This unfamiliar, now very familiar room filled with horrific silence in its full glory..
I just want to jump out the window out in the sun, feel it's warmth till I get sun burn..
To feel the cool breeze brushing through my hair, taking away the medicinal scent around me.
I can hear death whispering in my ears, I lay Unbothered. Just another typical sleepless night with it right beside me..
Im scared all alone and helpless.
But I guess I can go a few more of this endless pain and torture.
All dear loved ones... Farewell.....


(Recently I lost the dearest person in the Whole universe.. to covid.. I emotionally thought of myself in his situation and this is what it felt like😣😣🥺.. I just miss him lots😭😭.. I thought we'd meet again after this three yrs apart.. but....)
© @Simba Mongzar