Could it be that this is all I will ever be?

A loser,a mistake,a burden and the unwanted

The mirrors on every wall are shouting imperfection

The tape wonders how can anyone have such a waist

The teachers shake their heads when I hand in my exam papers,especially the science teacher

At night I wonder if I'm worth existing.

I used to have a dream,when I was five

I enjoyed the way my kite would dive

I liked playing in mud when it rained

With Joshua,that tolerated me enough to be a friend

But it all vanished so quickly,as if it was just imaginary

Now,I no longer have the zeal to be a lawyer

I no longer wish to be anywhere

'Cause if the stains,spots and blemishes everywhere

At the grocery store I feel their eyes prick me like an arrow

Theirs whispers and expressions are louder than the music playing via the headphones

I'm embarrassed,scared and ashamed

Maybe,this is just my dark fate

This all I could ever be.


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