I've been unhappy for so many years
what I miss most are the laughter & cheers
crying myself through a deep, deep pain
I look at the world with anger and disdain.
My unhappiness started when I was a boy
stripped of the things that gave me some joy
addiction and trauma corrupted my life
stabbed in the back by friends with a knife.
The feelings that I was forced to deny
when I had a drink, I would tremble and cry
unhappiness deep in my heart and my soul
denying my pain & it would soon take its toll.
I'm angry and hurt and feeling so weak
I hate seeing these tears rolling down my cheek
it took me a while to come to terms with this
but deep down inside, I'm angry & pissed.




© Josiah Bhola Hillaire