"Hi! How are you?"

"How am I? Thats a loaded question"

"What was that?"

"Oh nothing, Im fine. How are you?"

"Im great! By the way, there this thing I wanted to talk about-"

Oh good, talk more. Distract me from the burning in my bones. If im honest, im getting dizzy, dissociating as we speak.But ill be fine, keep talking. I wont remember this I know, i cant focus on anything right now but keep talking and later when you ask me ill tell a lie and say my memory is the worst.

"How have you been spending your time?"

Oh god, not a question aimed at me

"You know, the usual. Just chilling"

Yes, thats perfect. A casual coverup, dont let them know your head is spinning and your body stings as the too baggy clothes brustle against your skin. Dont let them know youve spent the last three days staring at the cieling counting every second until you feel like you can breathe.

"Oh cool! Do you want to hang out sometime?"

Why cant they just go? No thats wrong, I care for them. But why cant they just go? I dont want them to see me like this. Please, start talking again. Keep this conversation away from me. Ill play dodge ball with your words, Im an expert at outrunning any...