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My OCD
I feel like a shadow of darkness within me
No one understands what it feels like
I feel shame and guilt everyday.
how to help and what to do:
Accept the incoming storm
Pushing it away is fighting fire with fire
In other words:
There's nothing wrong with your thoughts and your intrusive thoughts. Trust me if you want to have control over your anxiety you have to accept your thoughts but let go of your emotional reaction to them while doing so. This will not be possible all the time of course and will be very difficult but it's what to do. Your thoughts aren't real, never will be. Your a very good person, believe me. We can't control what goes in our heads. I suffer from a very severe form of ocd but I look at the positive side of it. Some of my stories wouldn't of been possible and some of the life lessons I learned along my journey. I'm here for everyone. I can help a lot of people, unfortuantley the one person I've never been able to help is myself. Last year I had the best year of my entire life because I had control over my ocd. I still had intrusive thoughts though so don't try to push them away because I will always forever have them and there's nothing wrong with that, that doesn't mean i can't be happy and that's the point in letting go of an emotional reaction by gaining acceptance of them instead of pushing them away which makes the thunder clouds worst. As soon as you accept them ocd is bored with you. Ocd is a bully but is now very drained because it wants to you to feel awful. ocd is a bully that feeds unless you accept it.
I did this because my ocd has been awful and it stops me from writing stories and doing what I love. It's a rule my ocd made up and I hate it, I'm not surviving is the best way I can put it with all the guilt and the shame I feel every single day and worst that no one understands it and then themselves say things to me that make it worst. It's called being uneducated. The one thing that I am still able to so that does cheer me up is being nice, kind, friendly and empathetic and care towards others and trying to help people even when I'm around people who aren't. I will never let anyone change me. Ever. Even if my ocd convinces me I've changed Ihaven't. If ocd is saying it, then it's a lie. I hope I was able to help people, I feel nothing but I'm very very very sorry if I didn't. I just wish innocent people were understood and didn't suffer. That's all I want.
No one understands what it feels like
I feel shame and guilt everyday.
how to help and what to do:
Accept the incoming storm
Pushing it away is fighting fire with fire
In other words:
There's nothing wrong with your thoughts and your intrusive thoughts. Trust me if you want to have control over your anxiety you have to accept your thoughts but let go of your emotional reaction to them while doing so. This will not be possible all the time of course and will be very difficult but it's what to do. Your thoughts aren't real, never will be. Your a very good person, believe me. We can't control what goes in our heads. I suffer from a very severe form of ocd but I look at the positive side of it. Some of my stories wouldn't of been possible and some of the life lessons I learned along my journey. I'm here for everyone. I can help a lot of people, unfortuantley the one person I've never been able to help is myself. Last year I had the best year of my entire life because I had control over my ocd. I still had intrusive thoughts though so don't try to push them away because I will always forever have them and there's nothing wrong with that, that doesn't mean i can't be happy and that's the point in letting go of an emotional reaction by gaining acceptance of them instead of pushing them away which makes the thunder clouds worst. As soon as you accept them ocd is bored with you. Ocd is a bully but is now very drained because it wants to you to feel awful. ocd is a bully that feeds unless you accept it.
I did this because my ocd has been awful and it stops me from writing stories and doing what I love. It's a rule my ocd made up and I hate it, I'm not surviving is the best way I can put it with all the guilt and the shame I feel every single day and worst that no one understands it and then themselves say things to me that make it worst. It's called being uneducated. The one thing that I am still able to so that does cheer me up is being nice, kind, friendly and empathetic and care towards others and trying to help people even when I'm around people who aren't. I will never let anyone change me. Ever. Even if my ocd convinces me I've changed Ihaven't. If ocd is saying it, then it's a lie. I hope I was able to help people, I feel nothing but I'm very very very sorry if I didn't. I just wish innocent people were understood and didn't suffer. That's all I want.
