I feel empty and lost,
I'm so close
To loose my mind ,
So close to leave it all...

Sometimes it seems worthless to me,
Like a waste of time,
To fight
For what I want  with no  certainty
That I will have it
That I will earn it
Mostly just the feeling that it won't happen...

But you know , people say
"You have to try"....
A million songs ,books, ted talks about it, but helpless , pointless , they are not you,
They don't know you , so
Is it really worth it ?

What if, you went in the wrong path all this time? And now that you have gotten so close
Now you can't stop , evethough every step hurts because you know you've made the wrong choice...

So what if, I gave up?
Would I be a shameless coward?
Or would I be the bravest girl in the world?
For recognizing when to stop fighting
For knowing myself enough.

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