Sometimes I'm so full of life that I can't even believe it ,all I feel inside out is joy and warmth yet through the smiles and rib cracking laughter I mask up all the pain inside.

Yet I truly know that I seek the odd way out and so I grip my noose tightly in my back pocket so that it doesn't fall when I lean over to laugh.

And after sunset I open the flood gates of my eyes and perceive how I'd numb the pain ,that being if I'd hang from a ceiling or in a pool of blood with my wrists slit or by the road side I don't know yet .

But when the sun rises I'd have my smile on and you wouldn't tell how dark my nights were❤️