The Hidden Darkness
darkness looks so enticing
losing myself to the abyss
looks so easy yet so hard
The beauty of the colour red on a brown skin
but horrid and disgusting at the same time
Oh the pain that would come scares me
but the relief endears me
What would happen to the people left behind
would they miss me or not
would they be relieved that the burden is gone
Or be sadden by my departure
It's a question I mule over a lot
I say I hate attention but I'm just an hypocrite who wants to be remembered,to be loved, to be missed and to be cherished.
I feel I don't love enough or care enough or feel enough...
I feel I'm not loved enough or valued
As selfish as that sounds I can't stop feeling unloved and unimportant....
hmm I guess these days I don't feel anymore....
I just breath and exist somewhere between life and emptiness.
A balance between fake smiles and hidden cries
Between pointless conversations and isolation
Hope I feel normal one day
or at least learn to live with the darkness
© pellabae
losing myself to the abyss
looks so easy yet so hard
The beauty of the colour red on a brown skin
but horrid and disgusting at the same time
Oh the pain that would come scares me
but the relief endears me
What would happen to the people left behind
would they miss me or not
would they be relieved that the burden is gone
Or be sadden by my departure
It's a question I mule over a lot
I say I hate attention but I'm just an hypocrite who wants to be remembered,to be loved, to be missed and to be cherished.
I feel I don't love enough or care enough or feel enough...
I feel I'm not loved enough or valued
As selfish as that sounds I can't stop feeling unloved and unimportant....
hmm I guess these days I don't feel anymore....
I just breath and exist somewhere between life and emptiness.
A balance between fake smiles and hidden cries
Between pointless conversations and isolation
Hope I feel normal one day
or at least learn to live with the darkness
© pellabae